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Friday, March 23, 2012

Question #13

Question #13: Do you want to serve a mission? Where do you want to go? Why?

A: At this point the answer is no. I'm 29 years old. I want to get married. However, I would love to serve a mission with my husband one day. I won't care where. It would be fun to go to a different country, but only because I love to experience new places and new cultures. As long as I am with my husband, I won't care where I go though.

When I was in high school though, I was not sure if I wanted to serve a mission or not. I wasn't against it, but I didn't know for sure that I wanted to go either. I just told myself, when I came of the right age to go, if I had the desire to go then I would. If not, then I wouldn't go. As I got closer to the age of 21, we had sister missionaries in our ward and they were always wanting me to go with them places and telling me they were training me to go on a mission. Then when I turned 21 and I was not married and not dating anyone, I had a lot of people telling me I should go and asking me if I was going to go. I felt like it was so pushed on me that I didn't want to go because of it. I wish people had not put so much pressure on me about it. The desire was not there, therefore I didn't feel like I should go. I didn't think much about it until later. Everyone thought that I went on a mission. They just told me I acted like I went on a mission... which I guess is a compliment although I'm not quite sure what that means. Then I had a lot of people question me of why I didn't go and people telling me that I still should go even though I was older than most girls are when they go. I don't understand why people put so much pressure on me about it. Although I do know that even though a mission is a great thing no matter what... that you shouldn't go for the wrong reasons. I didn't want to go because I wasn't married and that is what people expected of me, I didn't want to go because I thought it would fix my problems, I didn't want to go because everyone else was doing it. If I was going to go I wanted it to be because I had a strong desire to do so and that I knew it was right for me. I always heard that sister missionaries either made the best missionaries or the worst. I think that it depends on the reason why they went.... even though I don't think a mission was bad for any of them. I just think your heart should be in the right place and obviously mine never was. Anyway.... it is still a little bit of a sensitive subject, but I don't regret my past. I always have felt that I have made the best decisions for me and not based on anything or anyone else. I feel like I have been a missionary in other ways and like I said I do hope to serve a couple mission one day.

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